Dreaming

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I have been doing a lot of dreaming lately.  It is not just the dreaming that you do when you are asleep at night, I also dream when it is quiet in the house and I only have this little guy for company.

Being a mother of five children, four with special needs, is very challenging for me. So I dream about what my life would be like if they were different, or if they were a little older.  What if always crosses my mind. What would my life be like if if I was a little less anxious? How would I handle my household if my kids were more normal? I am a dreamer and a worrier.  That is probably why I don’t sleep very well at night.
Just last week I had an appointment at the Pioneer Center for Human Services in McHenry, Illinois for a mental health intake for Goose, Kitty and Monkey.  I had never been to McHenry and the thought of driving on unknown roads makes me anxious. I was also concerned about the appointment itself. When my anxiety becomes difficult for me to handle I pray. My faith is the only thing that keeps me going.
The highway on the way to McHenry from where I live in Crystal Lake is under construction. As soon as traffic slowed down due to the construction I started to become anxious again. But then I looked to the left side of the road and saw a majestic bird.  I believe that God sent that bird as a sign to let me know that everything would be alright.  
Everything did turn out alright except that later I found out that I did not have to pull my younger kids out of school to take them along for the appointment.  All I did was fill out paper work. The kids do not have a mental health assessment until next month.  I only have to bring Goose to that appointment.  Every time Kitty pulls her hair out or Monkey physically hurts another kid or puts himself in danger I lose more sleep. I don’t know how much longer I can wait for them to get the help that they need.  In the meantime I will continue to pray and dream.
What do you dream about?

Cascia Talbert is a Catholic mother of five special needs kids. In 2018 she published the book, "Taking Care of Your Family's Health and Well-Being, Saints to Turn to and the Catholic Faith," available anywhere books are sold. She is also a professional flutist and an Avon Independent Sales Representative. You can learn more about Cascia on the following websites, cjsfunandgames.com and avoncrystallake.com. She lives in the Chicago suburbs with her husband, children and Baby, the playful black kitty.

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